Happy Day to all. I think it is best for me to just always start out by saying Thank you to everyone. I may still be a tad bit loopy so this one might be fun! Just kidding. A little.

So I had the port put in today. They originally said I would be "Consciously sedated" but when I woke up she told me she put me all the way out because I was nervous. I don't recall being nervous. I was a little frustrated because they were pretty behind. So about the time I was expecting to get out of surgery I was just going in. I don't remember who originally told me about the port, but they said I would have a tube about 6 inches coming out of my chest. This was kind of a concern to me, having a 3 year old and a 1 year old. Especially with Irelynn. She likes pulling tubes out. Granted they are usually going into her tummy not mommy's chest. So the port is under my skin and as soon as it heals there will be 3 prongs that will "poke up" I can't really tell whats going on with it right now. I have only been home about an hour or so. I guess I will get my Chemo through it, but they will also be able to draw my blood from it! Yipee!

Things are strange for me. The first week or so after my diagnosis, I actually had more good days than bad. That has reversed. I have been very emotional. I think it is just becoming more real. Also how kind people have been really gets to me. I don't have any pain really. Pain in the neck on occasion that isn't Frank ;) And pain in my butt (sciatica) that isn't Zander ;) Just kidding my boys are not pains!

Chemo school is tomorrow and I am glad my sister is going. She will remember everything that we are told and I am sure she will ask all the right questions. Frank has taken Tuesday off to go to my first Chemo treatment with me. I will usually do them on Wednesday, but we have tickets to Jeff Dunham on Wednesday so I am hoping I will be feeling okay by the evening to still go. If not, Frank may have a nice date with my nephew Tanner. We had a nice double date planned with my friend Stephanie and her husband. We were going to go to Olive Garden for dinner and then go see Jeff Dunham. I told Stephanie that I don't think we will make it to dinner, but I am going to try my hardest. The doc said the first treatment may not affect me too bad.

What else is happening... Our realtor called yesterday. I asked her the rules on taking the house off the market, which Frank and I have NOT discussed and at this time are not planning on it. She said if we wanted to she wouldn't mind. And she didn't even know about the cancer. She wants to do an open house. So the 27th we will have our first open house. I think we are going to drop the price one or two thousand to see if we can get more people looking. It would be such a HUGE relief if we could just sell the house. Just to not have to worry about it. Granted then we have to worry about finding somewhere to live with our 2 dogs. I am surely not going to want to look at houses too much for a while.

Since Frank went back to work we have had a wonderful arrangement with a friend of mine as far as child care goes. She was watching Irelynn for us while we worked during the day and we would watch Logan in the evening while she worked. It was so nice just trading daycare and not having to worry about paying someone. Unfortunately, I just don't have the energy right now to have an extra baby and with all my appts we had to bale on our friend. This was soooo hard for me. A lot harder than I expected it to be. We have been watching Logan since September and she is a little part of our family as is Alycia. I am glad that she found someone she could trust and hopefully WHEN I beat this we can resume our arrangement.

I feel like there was so much more I wanted to say, but I just can't think of anything right now. Guess that means it's time to go.