Good evening to everyone. I wanted to post last night but the laptop wouldn't work down in the basement. That is where I was stuck because I had a PET scan yesterday and couldn't be around my kids for 24 hours! That was tough! I got a quick hug and kiss from each of them when I got home from the doctor at about 3:30 but then it was off to the dungeon.

I didn't get any results from the PET scan. I will find out at my appt before my next Chemo on Wednesday. I wish it would come back clean and they would say "You are fine and don't need to do any more chemo, Oh and the cancer will NEVER return" But I am pretty sure that won't be what happens. I am positive it will come back better than the first one, but I will still have to do my last 8 chemos. And I think one of my biggest fears is this coming back after I go through all of this. Cancer and Chemo SUCK! I am miserable and I feel like the worst mom and wife in the entire world! Just to share that with you.

I have what the doctor called "associated nausea". I am finding so many smells mainly that get to me and make me sick. They are working on getting my insurance to approve some stronger nausea pills. My latest (sorry Dad) is the new car air freshener. My dad has that in his car and he has taken me to my last two chemo appts. Well Frank took my car to work on Tuesday and got the oil changed and they cleaned my car so he got me a new air freshener. He knows of some of my issues with smells and thought the new car one would be safe. It wasn't... Also as I drive up to the doctors office I get nauseous. It is so lovely. Haven't had any issues with foods yet.

We are for the most part ready for our trip. A little bit more to pack. Hopefully by 10 or 11 on Sunday we will be heading to Seattle!

Frank and I snuck out tonight for a late anniversary dinner. I didn't feel much like going out last weekend so we went tonight. We went to Outback. It was nice not having the kids, or Zander throwing a fit through dinner. I missed him the entire time because of that.

I also want to give a shout out to my nephew Cody, who probably won't read this. Cody is 16 and has achieved his lifetime dream (seriously) of being a race car driver. He had his first race out at State Line speedway last night. Because of my scan yesterday we were not able to go. We are hoping to make it soon. From what I hear, he was doing well until someone clipped him in turn four and sent him into the wall. At a very high rate of speed. He was able to walk away and they are working on getting him a new car. Way to go Code! We have a little present for you when we see you next!

I have been battling a cold and am going to go take some NyQuil and go to bed. I have also been battling sleep. I would do anything for a decent nights sleep. Thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers. Have a nice weekend if you don't hear from me again!